Have you ever stopped to look at a piece of mosaic art?? Isn’t it amazing how so many pieces (that are different shapes, sizes and colors) can come together to make a full masterpiece that is so beautiful!??
Long story short, I was talking to The Lord today, and I confessed to Him that I felt like my life was a mess. I confessed that I felt like my whole life was broken into a million pieces because of my own mistakes and disobedience (both past and present). I thought about how confused I’ve been feeling lately, and I couldn’t remotely wrap my mind around how my broken life could be fixed. I confessed to Him that I felt like no matter how hard I tried, I just can’t get it right. I felt like I was taking 2 steps forward and 10 steps back. I felt defeated and as if I was a disappointment to The Lord. I felt like He was tired of revisiting the same issues over and over with me.
But in the midst of my confession, Jesus simply spoke the word “Mosaic” to me. I wasn’t sure if I heard Him right, so I Googled the definition, then I looked for a picture. As I scrolled through the pics, I heard Him say to me, “this is what I can do with your life. I can take each broken, and seemingly misplaced piece and intricately put them together to make a beautiful masterpiece…”
Whew!!! After that, I literally sat in complete awe and silence for a few minutes. What a beautiful illustration, that Jesus custom-tailored to minister directly to me! A part of me didn’t want to share this experience, because, let’s face it, it’s never easy to admit your struggles as a Christian. In fact, it is especially hard to confess your weaknesses and struggles when everyone else is looking at you like your life is perfectly fine. However, I shared this moment with the hope that someone else will read my own personal story and find encouragement.
You may be feeling broken, lost, confused, defeated, etc. but don’t give up. This walk as a Christian is not easy. But The Lord sees you and He is there walking with you, even when you think He isn’t. Although your life may seem bleak right now, remember that it’s not the end. It’s not over! You’re reading this right now, so that means you’ve got another opportunity to put your trust in Christ and to surrender to Him again. You’ll never figure this life out on your own. There will be times where you feel completely lost. But your assurance must remain in Christ. Even when you feel like you’ve shattered your life into a million pieces, don’t give up! Those million pieces that you are staring at can easily be turned into a wonderful masterpiece. Just put your whole faith in Christ and press on!
Be encouraged friends!
From my heart to yours,
Have you ever been broken???
You know… that feeling of emptiness or a deep heaviness that cannot be described. You’re perplexed…sad…overwhelmed…tired… and the list goes on…
Simply put…. you’re just plain ol’ broken….
You don’t feel “all put together” and you may even find yourself fighting to smile above the tears welling in your eyes.
Well, if you can’t say that you’ve felt this way before, I can! I’ve been broken… A LOT! And sometimes people around me don’t even realize just how deep my internal battle runs. Yeah, I am quite experienced at putting up this facade like everything is “a-OK”. Let’s be honest, no one wants to feel broken (and if we are experiencing moments of brokenness, we don’t want other people to know it). We all want to feel like everything is all good. We want to be happy and healthy and enjoying life, right? Living a perfect life would be ideal for many of us, but the more important question is would a trouble-free life be beneficial to us????
Have you ever stopped to think about how your troubled, broken moments are of great benefit to you in the long run???
Let me explain….
Sometimes we have to experience brokenness so that we can get closer with the Father. It is during those broken moments that we tend to seek The Lord a little bit harder. When we are broken we are less religious and ritualistic and more authentic and earnest in our pursuit of Christ. When we are broken, we are utterly DESPERATE for Christ. When we are broken, we are not seeking Christ because we think its something that we “should” do, but we pursue Him from the depths of our soul because we are truly thirsty for Him. When we are broken, we can really see how much we need Christ. Our brokenness opens us up to really search for the only thing that can fill our voids… and that is Christ.
Its easy to say that we want a perfect, carefree life. But if we had that perfect life, would we be as diligent in our pursuit of The Lord?
For me, I can answer that question with an honest NO. I know that I would get lax in my pursuit of Christ. I know that I would spend more time being “busy” with life and less time communing with my Father.
I have grown to truly appreciate my broken moments. Those moments always bring me closer to Christ. So if God has to break me in order to draw me closer to Him, then so be it.
Lord let me be broken.